Jesus commands us to love each other as He has loved us. With all our faults and failings. He loved the disciples, knowing they would be human and have major faults. Makes me think of the love a parent has for a child. Even when they cause us pain, and yes, seem to deny (well, at least ignore) us, we love them. Even children that are to the world "bad" - we love our child.
A friend of mine has an adult child that has recently been incarcerated, not for the first time. My heart goes out to her and her family for that pain of social stigma. Yet I know she loves her child. Makes my hurts seem so insignificant.
Yesterday I spent the day with a dear friend and had the opportunity to attend a worship service where the sermon was on "re-gifting". We are encouraged to tithe- give to the Lord first, and then to give of our extra as well. I remember a line I think from a song, love isn't ours 'til we give it away. My heart is filled with love this Lord's day. I have more than I need to survive, but as a pass along "stuff", place my money envelope in the offering plate, and pack up my extra "stuff" for the church yard sale, may I also remember that playing in the bell choir is also giving some of my love, as is the love our leader gives to us as she encourages us (and at times puts up with our adult shenanigans).
Thank you God and the world for loving me. May I pass that along in words and deeds.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Wednesday-
Mid week - almost the middle of April. No real organized thoughts today. Just feel the desire to blog a bit.
I have been uneasy recently - whatever is going on with/in my right eye has settled into being unable to read normal print and a definite mess in the middle of my vision and since 1982 my right eye has been my "best" eye. Left eye post cataract has the best distance vision - right not as good, and now clearly (almost a pun there-) not as clear in the central vision. Still functions well for giving me depth perception and .
Been participating in the "Advancing your Spiritual Growth" class T is leading. Discovered last week that the paper work he has given us did not make sense with the chapter we were "assigned" - no wonder, the paper work covers numerous chapters. Goes to show he is not a teacher - As I have commented to E and A, I am looking for some assistance in my spirit - more in the line of nurturing than feeding. Made sense to me.
And now I find I am having real issues with my weight again. During the time I was walking last fall into winter, I got down to the lower 170's. Then winter struck, I quit regular walking and weight started up again. When I got sick it went down, then up a few pounds for a couple weeks, then down over 2 lbs and now today back up. I am at a serious cross roads that means discarding those summer clothes I really liked and was proud to wear in size 14 and buying more in a larger size. Very discouraging. But I recognize that eating is enjoyable to me and I am at a place where I feel little satisfying.
I am also discouraged about something I have no control over, but keep urging and trying. I really need to let that one go- even tho I have been a cheerleader for the effort. Very discouraging to want to do things, and feel powerless. Like all the brush that needs to be cleaned up around here- no point in starting more brush piles when the ones I've created over the years are still waiting. And too many big branches and trees I really can not move.
OK, enough for now - even this computer annoys me since the cursor does not move and if I pause, when I start back to typing the darn thing starts somewhere mid sentence. Guess I have a LOT of things I can't control and I better just get used to it!
But I KNOW that God loves me, NO MATTER WHAT, even when it seems I have trouble loving myself.
I have been uneasy recently - whatever is going on with/in my right eye has settled into being unable to read normal print and a definite mess in the middle of my vision and since 1982 my right eye has been my "best" eye. Left eye post cataract has the best distance vision - right not as good, and now clearly (almost a pun there-) not as clear in the central vision. Still functions well for giving me depth perception and .
Been participating in the "Advancing your Spiritual Growth" class T is leading. Discovered last week that the paper work he has given us did not make sense with the chapter we were "assigned" - no wonder, the paper work covers numerous chapters. Goes to show he is not a teacher - As I have commented to E and A, I am looking for some assistance in my spirit - more in the line of nurturing than feeding. Made sense to me.
And now I find I am having real issues with my weight again. During the time I was walking last fall into winter, I got down to the lower 170's. Then winter struck, I quit regular walking and weight started up again. When I got sick it went down, then up a few pounds for a couple weeks, then down over 2 lbs and now today back up. I am at a serious cross roads that means discarding those summer clothes I really liked and was proud to wear in size 14 and buying more in a larger size. Very discouraging. But I recognize that eating is enjoyable to me and I am at a place where I feel little satisfying.
I am also discouraged about something I have no control over, but keep urging and trying. I really need to let that one go- even tho I have been a cheerleader for the effort. Very discouraging to want to do things, and feel powerless. Like all the brush that needs to be cleaned up around here- no point in starting more brush piles when the ones I've created over the years are still waiting. And too many big branches and trees I really can not move.
OK, enough for now - even this computer annoys me since the cursor does not move and if I pause, when I start back to typing the darn thing starts somewhere mid sentence. Guess I have a LOT of things I can't control and I better just get used to it!
But I KNOW that God loves me, NO MATTER WHAT, even when it seems I have trouble loving myself.
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