So, my word for this year has been TRUST. And it is pretty amazing how often I find that word fits in many of my uncomfortable moments.
In my "contemplative knitting" - the item I knit on in my quiet time and pay attention to the motions of my hands, not knit while I am talking or waiting or watching TV - I recently needed to do a join of one skein to the next. I did the join sort of loosely a few days ago, and then had issues with the way it looked. Clearly too loose and made an obvious hump. So I had decided to take out the rows between the join and where I had gotten. I made up my mind that it had to be corrected, which meant pulling the stitches tight that involved my join. So that was what I did this morning. And in doing so I had now two issues - the strength of the join/weld, and remembering how many rows I took out so the pattern would be maintained. As I un-knit (some say tink-), I realized that my issue with trust was many times in trusting myself. In this case, in trusting the strenght of my weld of the yarns.
So, as I reknit the join area, I pulled it tight enough to not have an obvious gap, thinking I had to trust that weld - and lo and behold it is fine. Hardly shows. And I could tell when I had used up the yarn I unknit and when I started to go farther than I had undone. So yes, today my lesson in trust is to TRUST myself- my welds, my decisions, and perhaps even that I am loved and remembered even when I am out of sight. Enough said. Amen.
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