Here it is, Saturday again. I have been feeling a bit lost these past few days. I get into this kind of "funk" when it seems like I don't have much on my schedule. I am not good at all at doing "nothing". And yesterday I came to the realization (again, I am sure-) that the hardest thing to do to help someone you love, is nothing. I am a "do-er" - I want to work and to "fix" things. But I have clearly been made aware that my presence is too painful when you don't want to be busy, for whatever reason.
So, I have spent way too much time stalking facebook, and playing games on my computer. And today I realized I had forgotten my word for the year. I looked it up - TRUST. Back to that old part of me that seems to want to be in control - to do and to fix.
Why do I find it so hard to just be still and be quiet and TRUST? Why do I think I need to stay in control? Maybe today in my busy-ness and my quiet, I need to remind myself that I AM GOOD ENOUGH - to accept I am loved for who I am and whose I am, and that deeds and doing are not all that is required.
Thanks, Julie, for bringing me back to my word for this year.
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